Okay, cool?

Now watch Alien gameplay. MOST DIZZY SHIT EVER.



Damn insane. So not touching this game, I'm scared of monsters. ;_;

More Alien Gameplay!

Bah. I suddenly felt like I was wasting my time on the computer, so I tried to exercise.

Turns out I'm seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeriously unfit. 50 crunches are tedious (my stomach started hurting at 30 wtf) Twenty lats pushups make me pant, I CANNOT do bicep push ups AT ALL wtf la. I went for a 20, 30 minute jog. Finished two rounds, it was so hopeless oh my gosh. Everything took about forty five minutes now I feel damn shagged oh man.

SO PLEASE SUPPORT MEEEEEEEEEE IF YOU SEE ME SPAM YOUR FRIENDS PAGE EVERYDAY IT MEANS I'M WORKING OUT I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE. How I wish Chan Wee's still around to literally whip me into shape. My mind will scream no even though my body scream yes. That sounds so kinky.

If you don't like tell me I'll create a customlock or something so you won't see my spam! I hope I spam. Oh my gosh.

It's 10pm. I plan to sleep soon. And run at 6am tomorrow. Screw the computer. I hope I wake up.

"i have to revise that now. i think its actually very possible, althought i still think most people are infatuation at first sight rather than love. its possible because a person's spirit and personality is reflected on their face, their movements, their posture. if its love though, i think you'll feel naturally attracted to them and you'll love having fun talking and interacting with them rather than feeling nervous and uncomfortable. you'll feel comfortable approaching them because you recognize their personality suits yours, you feel a connection that makes it easy to approach the person."

from legod 

Fast beat music and aggro gameplay makes me strangely high.

I did my first deathcharge today! So happy. My team mates helped me so yea :D DC1 ledge. Smoker as usual, Hunter pounce knocked another down, after being cleared, I charged Rochelle off. It was a pretty weird angle, I thought she would end up on the lower level where the Smoker usually hides.

Decent attacks, people knew what they were doing, I was probably quite bad. After the Pinoy. Not that he was retarded or anything, just that I spent the first couple of maps teaching him the importance of attacking together. My logic of One SI = delay whereas Four SI = QUADCAP never fails lol. My Charger glitched way too many times and bounced off adamantium survivors, so pissed with myself. Cannot charge from too near!

Wanna cycle tomorrow. Maybe I should cycle to Sim Lim to get myself a proper mic. :/ But are there good microphones that aren't attached to headsets? D:

I worked for a week! That's 5 x 44 = 220 dollars omWAOW. Success in life.

Uh, sorry to those enlisting tomorrow but

I wanna go school tomorrow evening (Orientation campfire I think?) anyone want to go also? I got nobody to go with so lonely right.

Sms me if you wanna be my date for the evening, kthxbye. Need to pay off my sleep debt now.

Aww the drawings are so cute.

Soft kitty,
warm kitty,
little ball of fur

Happy kitty,
sleepy kitty,
pur pur pur.

:D

 

Cuter in the show. :P

Because I don't think people bother to read their friendspage the night before they go in, here's a slightly early message of well-wishes to all you brave young men waltzing into Tekong in the next few days (4th, 5th, 6th of February).

Wah. Was so stressed out in the morning.

I learnt that drinking two cups of drink in the morning for breakfast followed by a cup of milk tea right before work leads to going to the toilet THREE times in the subsequent hours. So that means each time I pee enough to fill a cup. Pretty disturbing thought.

Morning was stoning and waiting for things to happen while forms are filled and ready, then walking around. I'm gonna answer enrollment enquiries! Damn stressed. I hate answering phonecalls by strangers. But I guess it's not so bad, getting paid to overcome my phobia. Is this considered a phobia? A mild one maybe.

8 people in ASD, myself included. Two other guys, five girls. :D

Cute Malay girl is Cute Malay.

I didn't bother to talk to anyone, was too assed to bother. But had to talk a bit. We sat in our shitty (temporary) environment, one row of five along the wall for us guys plus two girls, and the other three girls along another wall. I sat closest to the door, so I ended up being an automatic 'leader' since anyone who walked in gave me the orders omfg.

In the three girls group (within which contained Cute Malay girl is Cute Malay) two of them were friends, leaving the other one fairly lonely. After lunch, they were all chummy, and actually talked to me. =.= Asked my name, and why I didn't eat with the guys. I still couldn't be bothered to ask them the same questions. Stupid me.

Lunch with my parents, it be quite interesting. I got to learn more about my parents, to be honest. I watched my mom in her working environment, and learned things about her which I never noticed before (but I'm too assed to bother to discuss it). I also realised (during lunch) that I resembled my father alot. And through that I somehow empathised with him a little more.

Maybe if you want to seduce me you can find out what perfume my mother wears. I suspect I have an Oedipus complex. Not so much of the sexual part (_|_ -.-) but.. I realise a few girls I've had crushes on kind of resembled my mom. In the negative way. In the way they irritate me yet I remain in the stuporific crush state.

Dunno la, just some scary thoughts. It's kind of like you like guys/girls with characteristics similar to your dad/mom, but in my case so far I see only the negative characteristics as the similarities, which is freaky. FML.

So the entire day was spent mugging the enrollment booklets. I was bored, so I took blank paper and started jotting down notes. It felt like school all over again, and I was there mugging like a dick. I was hoping my colleagues wouldn't ask me what school I was from, otherwise they'd start judging me and think I'm some stupid mugger. WALAO HOW TO SPOT QUESTIONS EFF EFF EFF EFF EFF EFF EFF.

Daily pay is $55, but stupid CPF cuts it down to $44 (unless I'm mistaken and it's not 20%). Still, I don't get any money till the end of February. ): Yea I know my pay is damn bloody awesome EAT YOUR HEART OUT. (:

L4D2 NAOOOOOOO.

From noreeny 

Days With My Father, by Philip Toledano

Reading about this old man made me cry. At some points, I assumed the perspective of the son, and felt so guilty and terrible. At others, I was the old man, forgetful and solemn.

It is then that I know, that he knows.

Crushing.

From fourth_twilight 

http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

There are 12 letters in your name.
Those 12 letters total to 54
There are 5 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
English Male Fair; handsome. Famous Bearer: U.S. actor Alan Alda.
Celtic Male Harmony, stone, or noble. Also fair, handsome. Originally a saint's name, it was reintroduced to Britain during the Norman Conquest, remained popular throughout the Middle Ages, and was revived in the 19th century. See also Allen.

Your number is: 9

The characteristics of #9 are: Humanitarian, giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression.

The expression or destiny for #9:
The expression that you exhibit is represented bythe number 9. Your talents center in humanistic interests and approaches. You like to help others as you were intended to be the 'big brother or big sister' type. You operate best when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You work well with people, and have the potential to inspire. This suggests that you could successfully teach or counsel. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this expression. It's possible that you're not using or developing all of these capabilities at this time. Some of your talents may have been used at an earlier time in your life, and some may still be latent. Be aware of your capabilities, so that you can make use of them at appropriate times.

If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural expression in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Your personal ambitions are likely to be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. You are quite idealistic, and disappointed at the lack of perfection in the world. You have a strong awareness of your own feeling as well as those of others. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important.

Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 expression can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this expression.

Your Soul Urge number is: 11

A Soul Urge number of 11 means:
With the 11 Soul Urge, much of your thinking and interests relate to the abstract, the spiritual, and utopian dreams. You are motivated toward idealistic concepts, and the sharing of your ideas and concepts with humanity. This number is not one that is giving in a material or a practical sense, but rather one who desires to help mankind with a more abstract commodity such as religion, spiritualism, occult studies, or even psychic abilities.

If you possess the positive 11 Soul Urge traits, you have a dream of the perfect world; you are highly idealistic and inspirational. Your inner strength and devotion to your beliefs are extremely strong. You have a very good mind that is especially well equipped to handle the higher, more abstract forms of thought.

If there is an excess of 11 energy in your makeup, you may possess some the negative 11 traits. There is a tendency for the 11 to produce considerable amounts of nervous tension which is bought on by a very high level of awareness. You may be too sensitive and overly emotional. In some cases, these sensitivities and emotions are quite repressed, and this tends to add even more to the sense of nervousness in the makeup.

The strong 11 is not a very practical person because of the extreme idealism; often, there is a degree of self-deception present. There is usually a rather fixed idea of right and wrong held by those showing strong 11 traits, and with this very often is a resulting attitude of inflexibility.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

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Feel like going "Oh hay it works!" but it is dodgey number magic. May I pass it off as coincidence?

Maybe I should have tried this half a year ago. I think I died along the way. But I won't elaborate on such a public channel.

Because I'm so bored.

Morning update: MA FEENGAR IS STEW NARM OH WAOWZ.

Skeeted a Hunter last night with M16 while camping at stairwell @ SF Finale. Dude was horrified. Melee-shottied a Smoker who tried to grab me at point-blank range in SF1 house before ferry, he was horrified too. Random shots over the roof of plantation house death drop zone in SF4 caught the head of a Spitter and it got headshotted. He was probably horrified too. Lucky me.

It was a good game, even though we lost. Local L4D2 community has some decent players! :D

I'm a really sucky Infected. :( But its so fun to catch SI trying to attack. Nobody can harm my team mates! Would a shotty or rifle be more useful covering team mates' asses?

Zamzaring a lot of songs off Youtube. Quality sigh.



From limitedcake . So adorable. (:

Use Somebody is really an amazing song. It's one of those ol' rock & roll songs, makes me think of the 70s and 80s, the days of hippies and sex, drug and rock & roll. Perhaps it was a decadent period, I don't really know much of it, but listening to the song makes me wish I could go to that time, to experience such amazing songs come to life in a concert packed full of people, swaying together to the music.

I think I listen to music differently from others. Most people listen to the lyrics, and sing along with them, and find meaning in these lyrics. Instead, I derive emotions from songs, and feel the emotions run through me whenever I listen to them. Even Quiet (by Rachael Yamagata) where vocals are primarily what makes the song, I ended up hearing the emotions in her tonal quality, when she hits a high note, when she whispers, they all bring to mind a variety of emotions.

Perhaps thats why I enjoy listening to old songs from my Secondary school days, because they bring me back to that time. The emotions invested into those songs as a kid, I re-experience them all over again, and recall my younger days.

Unfortunately, songs whom I associate with people and fall out with, I often find it hard to reconcile with. It seems foolish, as though each song was a page of memories to be reread and re-experienced. The songs I constantly come in contact end up as bookmarks of my life, to recall whenever I need.

It's strange how I enjoyed the songs performed at Home Club the other time. Many of the songs performed were not the type I would willingly listen to on a daily basis, yet I enjoyed the 'live' quality, the crowd, the ambiance, the bass thump, the crowd. There was a lot of emotions invested into the songs by the bands, and I could feel it reach out to me and make the songs more impressive than usual. Perhaps that's why Use Somebody has been on my mind these days. I wish I could experience it live, and perhaps I will weep.

Music is the pleasure the human mind experiences from counting without being aware that it is counting. -Gottfried Leibniz

I'm not so sure now, I guess. Perhaps if we re-defined 'counting'. :P

Wah freak I don't feel like moving anymore.

Cycled all the way to Geylang today, it was the return trip that killed me soooooo tireddddd.

Feel so sleepy.

It's actually quite easy to navigate around. I cycled down the same road from Chinese Garden to Outram Park, then my Spidey sense tingled and I followed my gut feeling and turned left right after Outram (haha) and went down a straight road to Chinatown, Clarke Quay, passed by Funan and all the way past Lavender, then decided to turn around at Geylang.

FREAKING TIRED I DON'T FEEL LIKE MOVING FOR 48 HOURS JUST SIT AT HOME AND PLAY DRAGON AGE HAHAHA. Shit...

I think I've met my monthly quota for cycling, hmm?

The fourth finger on my left hand is numb. It always happens when I cycle. I'm guessing I always lean on the handlebars more so with my left hand, constricting blood flow? No idea. It's irritating, grr.